It is taking some time getting settled in here. My stuff arrived last night. I was shocked when an 18-wheeler pulled up my street. They picked up my stuff in a much smaller truck. I live in a very residential area and I was surprised the truck even made it down the road. After they were done unloading, it sunk in, I am really here now.
I am sad. It isn’t so much the hello but the goodbye. I am sad to leave behind my old home to return to this one. I am not sad to be here, but I am sad to have left. I just feel like I don’t have time to really deal with my emotions. I don’t have time to weep. I just have too much to do. So I keep pushing it all back down until I can get to a place where I feel comfortable giving in to my emotions. I just need to be sad and mourn the loss of change. I know I am gaining so much more but I still need to acknowledge my pain so I can move past it do all the things I need to do.
I am going to be very busy. Working 40 hours a week, studying for the GRE, getting in shape, reconnecting with my family and dealing with all my internal issues, I will not time left for much more. It will be an interesting 6 months. I am actually looking forward to it, or at least the result.
I bought the 4Runner. I am so pleased. Everyone keeps saying it is me, and I think it is. Rose is here and I am so glad. She is very helpful in getting me set up and ready to do what I need to do. She is such an amazing person. Yesterday we spent 4 hours moving furniture around the house and she was there with us every step of the way. She so cool.
Well, I hope I get to go see Two Towers tonight. I am probably like the only person in America who hasn’t seen it yet!
