It must be obvious. I haven’t been into posting on Living Juicy lately. I have some things to say about the world but I’ve been silent on so many topics.
Topics such as love, best friends, ex-boyfriend’s and their new girlfriends or wives, Michael Jackson, dating, taking tests, the state of the world, books, and a myriad of other things. See, those all seem vaguely interesting. But no, I’ve been stingy with my opinion.
Has it been the stress of getting ready for the GRE? Preparing my applications? Perhaps I just feel so far behind and out of touch that I’ll never really catch up. Maybe it is just complete and utter apathy.
Well whatever it is, I sat down this morning and said to myself, “I must writing something…something witty, interesting and poignant.” But that’s just too much pressure. Nothing comes under those conditions. Those of you with blogs understand what I am saying.
Well, the same thing is happening to me when it comes to putting together my fiction submission for grad school. I sit. I think. I must put together the best story or stories I’ve ever written. They must be compelling, well developed, original and grammatically pristine.
Yeah, right. It’s just too much. Can you say, “Instant writer’s block”?
Right. So. I just gotta let it flow, like the spice. And since I’ve already made a reference to one of my favorite movies of all time I might as well throw in another one that is quite appropriate for the topic at hand.
I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
- The Bene Gesserit Littainy against Fear, Pg 19 of Dune
